Mcp told me a thing which left me kinda 'lost' in the big reflection thinking tank for two days.
We were talking bout guys' maturity relation with age. And I was talking bout how immature one guy is. He said, 'You are too matured la!'
I was speechless for 2s and i start to think whether isit a good thing or not.
Or was it independence?
Dad and mum had never need to force me to make a decision on anything. From mee pok or bee hoon, ngee ann or temasek, food science or IT, to buy or not to buy. Their answers are always "Up to you. As you like it and able to manage it." Sometimes I wonder why other people's sisters are being pampered by their siblings but my brother will know that I can take care of myself.
Yes, I need the decision making freedom.
But I've grown to become indecisive as well. Perhaps its because I know I have the control button in my hand. And til now, i'm still unsure on a certain issue.
On whether its really a case of 不舍得 or 不服气. To which its like more of the latter.
But, come to think about it, what's there to be 不舍得 or 不服气 when 說穿了,有些諷刺,從沒把握一生一世... What's there to reap if you dont sow?
給自己的情歌
中文詞：陳鎮川 作曲：周杰倫/陳少琪 編曲：鍾興民
妳是誰 怎麼一夜不睡
重覆一樣的音樂 不肯承認正為愛受累
早就過了 青澀歲月
卻仍然心裡有個空缺 便急著想要有人陪
無怨無悔 又忘了最後要受的罪
妳的美 有些憔悴
抿著嘴說不出抱怨 躲著偷偷流眼淚
最初那一句台詞 填補了寂寞位子
它不關年少無知 誰都高估愛的價值
平凡的女子
清醒一次一次 糊塗一次一次
不過是
再見那一個手勢 便明白到此為止
說穿了有些諷刺 從沒把握一生一世
痛難免真實
多出來的鑰匙 留給愛的堅持
下一次
聽妳的故事 笑得有些衿持
怎麼會和我那麼相似
開始結束 彷彿公式
是誰說愛情就該如此 失控哭一哭就會沒事
一個堅持 究竟容得多少次的迷失
讓過程 都像歌詞
不過短短幾行文字 當作紀念的心事